You may have noticed I post much less frequently these days.
It’s not you. It’s me.
Truth is, I’m filled with things I want to say, but am finding it harder and harder to say them.
And life’s different now, with the loss of my Dad and the added responsibilities of helping my Mom.
And school’s been in session for 4 weeks now and I still don’t have a school groove going.
You know why? I don’t have any groove going.
I’m wandering around my life trying to figure out what to do.
Does that mean I’m not busy?
Ha! Hahahahahahahahaha. Show me a mom who’s not busy and I’m pretty sure she’ll say her kids are in college. If you can even stop being busy then.
I think I’m in the process of reinventing myself. Deciding what I want to keep in my life and what I want to kick to the curb.
And then deciding what new things I want to add. If any.
Honestly, some days adding “stare at the walls and wish Dad hadn’t died” would be the perfect “new me” thing to do.
And some days I’m doing that.
In the meantime, you may continue to see me less around here. Not non-existent. I love my space. Just less.
While I decide what dumb things I’m involved in that shouldn’t continue and what new things I need to involve myself in so that I stay sane.
Which is a relative phrase.
Big changes in your life. When you’ve had them, how have YOU changed as a result? Did you like the new you better?